My Baby Girl Is 9… The One That Made Me A Mama.

Wow. I have tears in my eyes already because how is the little girl who changed my life, the one who gave me a reason to live, the one who made life worth it 9 years old?

I truly can’t believe I’ve been a mama for 9 years.

9 whole years of wiping away tears after she’s fallen down,

9 whole years of kissing her sweet face before bed,

9 whole years of “I love you mama”

9 whole years of being her comfort, her safe space, her familiar, her stability,

9 whole years of struggles, hugs, kisses, laughs, smiles & cries,

9 whole years of being best friends,

9 whole years of being a mama to the most perfect, squishy, gentle baby girl.

Becoming a teen mom was the hardest thing I’ve ever done. My baby girl, my sweet once 8lb baby girl has grown up with me. She has saved me. She got the broken version of me when she deserved the put together version of me. She deserved the version of me that I am now and even though she’s getting that now I’ll never be okay with her getting the broken version of me when I had her. She is so strong and passionate and caring and thoughtful and when I feel like i’ve failed because I was a teen mom, I know that I did the complete opposite of that.

I know that because of her I am who I am today. Because of her I am strong, I am capable, I am living, I am breathing, Because of her I’m not only living but I’m thriving. She gives me the motivation I need to be better because she deserves that. She deserves every single ounce of that. She has taught me more about life than I ever imagined. We are still growing together and learning together. I’m nowhere near perfect but because of her I’m better than I was and continue being better every single day.

I am so incredibly blessed that God picked me, he REALLY picked me. I think he knew that I needed this. To push me, he carved a path for me that was so beyond perfect even if I didn’t see it then. If I didn’t get pregnant with my girl at 17, who knows where I’d be…

Me and my girl got to grow up together and watching her become her own little person has been incredible and heart breaking all at the same time. She makes me so proud and so she just warms my heart. The way her hair curls, the way she giggles, the way she takes up the entire bed to sleep, the way she can make her sister laugh by just walking in the room, the way she writes me little notes.. She’s just so spunky, creative, beautiful and just absolutely perfect in every way.

Happy 9th Birthday My Sweet Baby Girl. You are so incredibly loved.

Xoxo, Until Next Time, Cheyenne.

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